The pain sometimes which you feel is really difficult to express in words. But some or the other day, either it will just burst out suddenly or it will keep you eating inside.
The release of the pain is very important. Never ever let that pain destroy you from inside. Release maybe in form of crying or writing the thoughts on paper and burning it. Never let that Pain consume you instead you make that pain your weapon , the strength to help you feel the life you wanted to live.
Trust the process and take care of yourself during these times. Let that immense pain be forever gone replaced by the incredible power to make you stronger.