Many a times, what we say does not sync with what we actually wanted to maybe due to thoughts of how others will react to it. Many things are left unsaid because of this.
Listen to yourself. What is your body telling you, what thoughts are coming in your mind and what your soul wants — these are the things which can help you grow in every area of your life.
Sometimes, we want to excel in our lives so badly that we forgot how to live this life and then in the end, we regret doing that and wish to go back and make it right.
Remember that YOU are important. Your life is important. Never lose it for something which you do just because others are doing that. FOCUS ON YOURSELF and ENJOY THE PRESENT.